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God’s Words Led Me on the Way of the Purification of Sin
By Chennuo, Malaysia
I was born in Malaysia. My family planted pepper and cocoa for a living. Because my family was poor, I began to help my parents by working from childhood. Though tired, I could not but do that, or my mother would be unhappy and even wouldn’t talk to me. In that case, I would suffer more pains in my heart. Later, when I went to elementary school, one of my classmates incited others to turn their back on me, if she was not so keen on me. Therefore, no one gave me a hand when I had difficulties in my homework, and then my teachers often scolded me. Confronted with all of this, I was in distress. I didn’t know what mistakes I had made. Sometimes when taking these things to heart, I felt that my existence was unwanted. And I had the thought of death from time to time.
When I was in grade five, a pastor went to our school to teach us Sunday school. And so I came to know the Lord. Afterward, I was very happy on Sunday, for in Sunday school class I could sing songs and hear the pastor interpret the . Once, the pastor told us, “For our sins, the Lord was crucified for us. Thus, no matter what sins we commit, the Lord will forgive us as long as we confess to Him.” As I had never enjoyed warmth, I was surrounded by the love I had never tasted before when hearing that the was nailed to the cross to save us. From then on, I no longer had the thought of death.
In 1990, I went to a big city for work. During this time, I often prayed to the Lord, living in peace and gladness. I felt supported in my heart and was no longer lonely. In the following several years, I prayed to the Lord Jesus on condition that I met troubles. By the Lord’s grace, I worked successfully, and led a good life bit by bit. Experiencing the Lord’s special care, I was filled with gratitude toward Him. Thereby, I often went to the church to worship the Lord. In 2000, unexpected things happened: Our church was split, because our pastor had a confrontation with elders due to the church’s money. As a result, our pastor drove the four elders out of our church, and the elders established a new church. Not long afterward, the elders fell into conflict, and then divided their church into two. Seeing the pastor and elders schemed against each other, and had jealous disputes with each other, I was very grieved. I couldn’t understand why our church got into such a situation. Later, I was more and more disgusted with the monotonous preaching of our pastor. If I didn’t hear, I felt indebted to the Lord. However, if I heard with reluctance, I really couldn’t receive any life supply. I lost my hope, and felt very weak and empty in spirit. At times, I sang the hymns alone with weeping at home. The Lord would return soon; I, however, was in such condition—I had no knowledge of the Lord, and usually had too many complaints for my mother, living in sin without being able to be free from it. Going on this way, I would surely be forsaken by the Lord. The more I thought this way, the more distressed I would be. However, I didn’t know what to do.
In July, 2016, while I was in suffering and in pain, I made the acquaintance of Sister Zhang on Facebook. She and a brother invited me to attend meetings and share the Bible together. At the first meeting, they shared a verse with me. The Lord, “Not every one that said to me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into ; but he that does the will of my Father which is in heaven” (Matthew 7:21). The brother fellowshipped with me, “In this scripture, the Lord Jesus clearly told us the qualifications for entering into the kingdom of the heaven—only those people who do the will of God can enter into His kingdom. For example, some people say that they’re believers in the Lord, but they seldom attend meetings, and seldom to Him, and also their actions are no different from those of the unbelievers. They’re not the people who obey God’s will. Still some believers can keep some teachings of the Lord on the outside, but once something against their will befalls them, then they will unknowingly commit sins, and cannot break away from the binding of sin. They also cannot do the will of the heavenly Father completely. Those who will enter the kingdom of heaven must be cleansed of sin. They all do God’s will, obey, love and worship Him. The Bible says, “holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord” (Hebrew 12:14). God is holy. If people always live in a cycle of sinning and repenting like this, and complain against God, and disobey and resist Him when encountering difficulties, how can they be permitted by God to enter His kingdom? Thus, if we want to enter God’s kingdom, we still need God to do another stage work of judgment and chastisement, which thoroughly sets us free from the bondage of sin and makes us become men who are purified. Only in this way can we be purified and enter the kingdom of heaven.” After hearing his fellowship, I felt that he had a special understanding of these scriptures, and had enlightenment in his preaching. The meeting lasted three hours, but I felt no tiredness. Yet, I was a little worried, for I often committed sins as well, and failed to completely follow God’s will. But then I thought: It is good enough as long as we confess to the Lord after committing sins and repenting. By the precious blood of the Lord Jesus, our sins have been forgiven.
Later, we had another two meetings together. Brothers and sisters still kept talking about the problem of how to remove sin. The more I heard that, the more I felt something was wrong. I thought: Since the moment we received the Lord Jesus as our Savior, we’ve been purified by His precious blood. So, we needn’t accept the work of judgment and chastisement. There is no mistake in the words of the Bible. At the moment, I suddenly recalled that the brother had referred to the words “the incarnation” and “God’s work in the last days” in his fellowship. And I thought: It seems that these words are not mentioned in the Bible. Is it possible that … they are the followers of? Only the Eastern Lightning followers talk about God’s work in the last days. It reminded me that my pastor and elders had told us not to contact with the Eastern Lightning followers. Then I was a little afraid, so I decided to no longer gather with them.
Soon, over one month passed by. Over this period of time, I fell back into my old condition, living in emptiness without direction. Every day, the brother ceaselessly invited me to attend meetings by messages, but I merely replied him with some polite remarks every time. When he spoke of attending meetings, I would use all sorts of excuses to refuse him. Sometimes, I mulled it over: He had more enlightenment and light than my pastor in fellowshiping about the scriptures. He could relieve me from confusion, and give me supply and enjoyment in spirit. Rather than being in a condition of dryness, why do I not listen to new enlightenment? However, as soon as I remembered the words of my pastor, I told myself: I’ve been saved by the Lord, so I needn’t hear that.
Some days later, a net friend asked me, “Why does the Bible say when God comes back, all kindreds of the earth shall wail because of Him?” Regarding this question, I didn’t know how to answer. Just then, it reminded me of the brother who had light in his fellowship about scriptures. So, I sought the answer to this question from him. He said, “Those who shall wail refer to the ones who resist and slander God’s new work. In the last days, God comes back to do the work of judgment and chastisement through expressing His words, which means the work of saving, purifying, and perfecting man. God will make a group of people into overcomers by His words before the disasters, and then publicly appear to us. As a result, those who don’t accept God’s judgment but oppose and condemn Him won’t know that the One they resist is the Lord Jesus, whom they have been excepting night and day, until God appears to them; they shall be condemned by God and weep and gnash their teeth due to their resistance to God. Just like when the Lord Jesus became flesh to do His work on the earth, the Pharisees always didn’t recognize that the Lord Jesus was Messiah that people had been longing for, and even nailed Him on the cross. They were condemned by God, for they resisted Him. It can be seen that if man stubbornly holds on to his own notions and imaginations, neither having knowledge of God’s new work, nor investigating it, he surely will oppose God and be punished by Him at last because of his conceptions and imaginations.”
After hearing his fellowship, I felt a little afraid: It seems to describe me. Although I believe in the Lord, attend meetings, and hear preaching in the church, yet I have little knowledge of the Lord. I believe in the Lord but don’t know God. I may oppose God at last without knowing it. What a terrible result! Oh, no, I should keep on listening to his fellowship. If I don’t accept God’s new work, not only will I fail to enter into the kingdom of heaven, but I also will be punished in the end. In that case, won’t I really become the one who mourns and grinds his teeth?
Later, the brother read a passage of sermons to me, “The Bible says, ‘For on that day shall the priest make an atonement for you, to cleanse you, that you may be clean from all your sins before the LORD. It shall be a sabbath of rest to you, and you shall afflict your souls, by a statute for ever’ (Leviticus 16: 30-31). Everyone who is familiar with the Bible knows that in the Age of Law, the tenth day of the seventh month is the day of atonement for Israelites in every year. At that feast, all the people must offer the firstling among cattle and sheep without blemish upon the altar as a sin offering, in order that their uncleanness and transgressions in the year could be purified. No one may transgress it, forever and ever. But by the end of the Age of Law, as people committed more and more sins, they became increasingly corrupt and degenerate, and lost their reverence for God Jehovah, so that they took what had been lame, blind and sick as offerings to sacrifice on the altar. If such situation had continued, people surely would have died according to the Law. However, God didn’t have the heart to have the mankind He created with His own hands destroyed like this. Therefore, based on His management plan and man’s need, God was incarnated as the Lord Jesus Christ to bear man’s sins by being nailed to the cross, using His sinless flesh as a sin offering to redeem all mankind. Since then, as long as we believe in the Lord Jesus, our sins can be forgiven. However, we only have been redeemed, but our root of sins has yet to be resolved. So, we still need God to do another stage of work of purifying and removing our sins.”