Overcoming the CCP’s Cruel Persecution by Relying on God - Christian Persecution Testimonies
In 1998, I was fortunate to accept Almighty God’s work of the last days. Through seeking and investigating, I knew that Almighty God is the Lord Jesus who has come back and Almighty God is the only true God who created the heavens and earth and everything. I performed my duty in the church soon.
After Being Arrested in Spreading the Gospel, I Prayed to God and the Vital Materials Were Not Searched Out
In December 2012, I was responsible for the gospel work of the church and spread the gospel with brothers and sisters. Thanks to God’s blessings, the great number of new believers returned to God’s house. Seeing the unprecedented splendor, I offered my thanks and praises to God from my heart. However, the Chinese Communist government has an extreme hatred of God’s work. It obstructs God’s gospel work extremely. It persecutes and arrests the believers crazily and arbitrarily, and it overwhelmingly carries out big blanket manhunts of the Church of Almighty God. It is the vain hope of the CCP to abolish God’s work.
One day, I made an appointment with co-workers. I didn’t know that an arrested sister had known the address of this host family until I arrived there. So we moved urgently to another host family that was in the suburbs. The next morning, I heard the brother of the host family saying that the CCP would carry out total arrest of the believers in Almighty God in their village. So we went to a remote host family again. For some reason, in the evening we moved to an old sister’s home which was in town. At about 10 p.m., we had communicated just for over an hour. Suddenly there came a hurried knocking at the gate and someone shouted: “Open the gate! Open the gate! …” The shouting was getting louder and louder. We realized that the police were coming. We hided books and the name list of potential believers quickly, and then we hided ourselves in the opposite wing-room. We planned to run up the stairs to the roof and escape. At the moment, through the curtain I saw some people’s shadows swaying on the roof of the principal room. I realized that the house had already been surrounded by police. And then I prayed to God quietly: “O, God! Today that the environment happens to me is Your permission, but I am very nervous. Please watch over and protect my heart to be quiet before You and to depend on You to experience this environment.” After praying, I wasn’t much too nervous. The old sister let us hide in the cellar quickly. The cellar was so small that it only contained four people. One sister insisted on staying outside to safeguard our surroundings. When we entered into the cellar, I heard the police persistently shouting: “Where are they?” Hearing their shouting, my heart thumped, so I continuously called out to God. At this time, I remembered God’s words: “You should know that all things in the environment around you are there by My permission, I arrange it all. See clearly and satisfy My heart in the environment I have given to you. Do not fear, Almighty God of hosts will surely be with you; He has your back and He is your Shield” (“The Twenty-sixth utterance”). God’s words quieted my heart gradually. I thought: This gang of police come prepared. If I am arrested today, it is also God’s permission. I don’t have enough stature, but I would like to depend on God to stand firm in my testimony before Satan. At such times, I heard a herd of police calling loudly: “Where are they?” I felt they walked towards the cellar. At a result, the lid of the cellar was lifted by a policeman. He shouted at us fiercely: “Come out! Come out quickly!” We had to come out from the cellar. There was a policeman in his thirties standing at the entrance of the cellar and five policemen standing in the doorway, and two of them were policewomen. One policeman in his forties pointed and shouted at us: “Stand in a row! Stand still!” Afterward, two policewomen searched us forcibly. Nothing was found. Several policemen came in from outside and whispered to these policemen in the room. Then they walked inside and outside of the room. At this time, I got worried and afraid. I was afraid that the police would find our things that we hided in the kitchen and parlor. Once our things were found, a great loss would be brought to God’s household, and the things would be the evidence that we were arrested by police. So I continuously called out to God in my heart: “O God! The police are always like bandits. They are rummaging for our things in the house. I’m worried about my bag in which there are some important things—my notebook on which there are the number of potential believers, addresses of churches and the name list of everyday arrested brothers and sisters. If they are found by police, this will damage the work of God’s household. May You watch over and protect us.” Subsequently, I recalled God’s words: “Of everything that occurs in the universe, there is nothing that I do not have the final say in. What exists that is not in My hands?” (“The First Utterance”). God’s words strengthened my faith and gave me power. I believed that everything is controlled by God’s hands, and whether the things we hided were searched out, God has the final word. With the enlightenment of God’s words, I was not afraid anymore. The police rummaged for twenty minutes inside and outside of the house, then handcuffed brothers and sisters as well as me, and sent us to the police cars. In the car, I was not allowed to move. Two policemen who sat by my sides respectively pressed my shoulders. At that time, I was most worried whether the things as well as my bag were searched out or not. I watched every people coming out from the host family, and noticed whether someone held my bag. Through the car window, I saw several sisters being sent to the police cars at the back. When everyone came out from the house, I found that nobody held my bag. Now I breathed a sigh of relief, and thanked God for His protection. The things escaped the police’s search, and mygot stronger.
With Wisdom I Destroyed the Paper With Phone Numbers
About over ten minutes later, police cars arrived at the County Public Security Bureau. Getting out of the car, I was first to be sent into the office block. Suddenly, I remembered that before I was arrested a sister handed me a paper with phone numbers on it, which was just in my pocket. Thanks to God’s protection, it was not searched out. Now I could never allow these phone numbers to fall into the evil police’s hand, and never allow them to be a clue to arresting my brothers and sisters. So I kept calling out to God in my heart, asking Him to help me think of a way to destroy the paper. When they sent me through a hall, I saw there were toilets in the hall. I knew it was God’s arrangement. Then I said to a policewoman: “I want to use the toilet.” The policewoman took me to the toilet impatiently, stood at the entrance of the toilet, and watched me. I pretended to pull toilet-paper out of my pocket, and took the opportunity to pull out the paper with phone numbers. And then I threw it into the toilet. At this moment, I felt assured. Thank God for His protection. Coming out from the toilet, I was taken into the office of the chief of the County Public Security Bureau. As soon as I walked into the office, several men came in with cameras on their shoulders, took photos and made records of me directly. Afterward, the short fat chief ordered the policewoman to undress me and search me. At last, there was nothing to be found. Thank God for having guided me to get rid of the paper with phone numbers in advance. Otherwise the consequence was terrible.
Physically and Mentally Damaged During Interrogation in PPSD, I Grew More Resolute
At about twelve o’clock at night, two policemen cuffed my hands behind my back and sent me to a car. The car drove on the expressway. I didn’t know where they sent me. With the car’s jolting, the handcuffs got more and more tight. It seemed to be embedded into my wrists. I ached unbearably. The CCP ravaged brothers and sisters’ bodies and minds with its despicable and malicious means all along. The CCP injects brothers and sisters with drugs and subsequently makes them schizophrenic, even become vegetable. The CCP is so brutal and I didn’t know what despicable means would be used to ravage me. Worries and fear filled my heart, and then I prayed to God without cease. At the moment, I thought of God’s words: “Be not afraid; with My support, who could ever block the road?” (“The Tenth Utterance”). “Today everyone will have bitter trials to face, otherwise the loving heart you have for Me will not grow stronger and you will not have true love for Me. Even if it is just minor circumstances, everyone must get through them, it’s just that they differ to some degree. The circumstance is one of My blessings” (“The Forty-first Utterance”). God’s words strengthened my faith and gave me power. I felt much assured immediately. I was not afraid and I would like to obey God’s sovereignty. One hour later, the car stopped in the yard of XX Provincial Public Security Department. Getting out of the car, I was taken into an interrogation room on the first floor of the department by two policemen. They unlocked the handcuffs behind my back. There were two red gashes on my wrists, which had no aesthesia already. And then the policemen pulled my arms toughly and pressed me onto the torture-rack, and put cuffs on both my ankles and wrists. I didn’t know what cruel torture I was going to face. I prayed to God continuously in my heart. Half an hour later, a woman in her fifties came in. She said to me hypocritically: “Where are you from? How old are you? How old is your child?” I didn’t pay attention to her. She continued: “We are all women. Nothing is more important than taking good care of family and children for us. So don’t be stupid. Within our age range we have parents and children. Why don’t you stay at home? Look! It is due to believing in God that you are in such a plight. How unworthy! Why do you bear the pain?” I thought: “Faith in God is heaven’s law and earth’s principle for everyone. Someone who doesn’t believe in God or fulfill his duty is not qualified to be a man. It is worthy and meaningful to endure bitters for faith in God. The bitters are also God’s blessings. Our fates are in the palm of God’s hand. No one can take care of his children or families well. It is only God who can make it. You resist God, and tempt me to resist God too. How despicable!” Without my paying attention to her, she went out crestfallenly.
Later on, the policemen interrogated me about my name and home address. I was silent all along. One evil policeman burst into a rage, hit the desk and shouted to me: “Where on earth are you from? Say or not?” I was still silent. At the moment, that policeman in his thirties fiercely rushed direct before me and gave several punches at the middle of my chest. At once, the pain in my chest was more than I could bear and almost stifled me. He still shouted at me: “Say it! What are you doing here? Who send you here in your church? Whom do you keep in contact with?” They saw that I didn’t say one word and then gave several fierce kicks at my legs. Then he seized my hair and gave me three or four slaps on both checks. Immediately my checks were in searing pain. While slapping me, he abused: “Where are you from? Do you want to revolt? How dare you come to Qinghai City to spread the gospel?” I still kept silent. Seeing this, they unlocked my handcuffs, wrapped my wrists in towels, and then cuffed me again. They pulled my handcuff rings and lifted them up to the highest, then they suddenly slapped the handcuffs on me with all their might. At once, my wrists were painful and almost broken. My face unceasingly sweated with pain, but they had a hearty laugh about this. They didn’t get what they wanted from me, so they got exasperated and then pulled me out of the torture-rack. “Don’t expect to continue sitting on the chair. Uh! You will suffer a lot!” One of them howled and pressed me onto the wall. He punched me and kicked my legs violently. I still didn’t say a word. He said to me fiercely: “Up against the wall!” Then he went out, leaving two policemen watching me. My feet and legs swelled up. I ached all over, and had stood for over one hour. I could hardly hold on, so I tried to crouch for a rest. “Stand still! Don’t expect to rest!” they shouted to me. The night before, in order to evade the CCP’s arrest, I couldn’t have a sleep at the host family. I was sleepy now. But hardly had I closed my eyes when they began shouting to me. “Open your eyes! Wanna sleep? No way! Look at the front!” Seeing these evil policemen’s malicious means, I was full of indignation. I thought: “God created us. He deserves to be believed in and worshiped. We spread the gospel so as to bear witness for Him and cooperate with His work of salvation. We are walking on the right road. Why do we suffer the CCP’s persecution and such cruel torment?” I thought of Almighty God’s words: “For thousands of years this has been the land of filth, it is unbearably dirty, misery abounds, ghosts roam its every corner, tricking and deceiving, making groundless accusations, being ruthless and vicious, trampling this ghost town and leaving it littered with dead bodies; the stench of decay covers the land and pervades the air, and it is heavily guarded. … Forefathers of the ancient? Beloved leaders? They all oppose God! Their meddling has left all beneath heaven in a state of darkness and chaos! Religious freedom? The legitimate rights and interests of citizens? They are all tricks for covering up sin!” (“Work and Entry (8)”).
Almighty God’s words reveal the CCP’s evil essence that hates the truth and resists God. It is born hating God and being hostile to God. It doesn’t permit the existence of God and doesn’t permit people to believe in God and follow God. It is the vain hope of it to put all believers in God into prison and force them to deny and betray God with its ravage and then make them believe in and follow itself. Its ends are to control and devour people and at last it as well as people is perished by God together. Now it continues to profess “the freedom of religious belief”, but it persecutes and ravages believers madly in secret. It desires earnestly to kill all believers and drive God out of the earth so as to build a godless realm. The CCP is really despicable and evil. Now I really hate it from my heart. It wanted to ravage my will by torturing my body and then make me betray God. However, under the guidance of God’s words, I saw clearly the CCP’s devil face and then my will to satisfy God was strengthened. At that time, a hymn of God’s words arose in my mind. “If you truly love God, and do not satisfy the flesh, then you’ll see that everything God does is so right, and so good…” (“Follow the Lamb and Sing New Songs”). Through God’s words, I understood that God used this environment to give my will to betray my flesh. And the environment constrained me to come before God,, depend on God and draw close to God more. In the environment, I had seen God’s wisdom and almightiness as well as God’s words’ power and authority. This was God’s practical love and salvation for me. Enjoying the provision of God’s words, I wasn’t in pain anymore. Afterward, a policeman ordered me to sit on the torture-rack. Seeing God’s wonderful deeds, I was full of thanks and praises to God in my heart. I believed that God is almighty and everything is in God’s hands. And there was God’s permission, no matter how the evil policemen treated me the next day. I had confidence to betray my flesh, and to satisfy God.
Using Soft Tactics to Let Me Fall Into Temptation
The next morning, at past 8, another three policemen took over the interrogation. No matter how they interrogated me, I kept silent all the time. They couldn’t get anything from my mouth, so they didn’t interrogate me anymore. In the afternoon, a fat policeman in his fifties came in. The three policemen quickly advanced and shook hands with him. One of them said to him: “Mr. So-and-so, what brings you here? You’re really the master-hand at interrogation!” Another said: “Mr. So-and-so really is an expert at interrogation. There is no case but he can interrogate. Whoever is interrogated by him will have to come clean.” The fat policeman hastened to say: “You’ve worked hard. How about the interrogation?” “She is very stubborn and doesn’t say a word.” They replied in weary resignation. “I get it.” The fat policemen said. Through their conversation, I knew this fat policeman was more insidious, malicious and tricky. I should depend on God to deal with him carefully. The three policemen left, and the other three began to interrogate me, among whom the fat policeman was the chief. At first, with a smile on his face, he said some hypocritical concerned words to me and chatted with me. But I didn’t pay attention to him. Suddenly, he turned angry. He switched the topic of conversation and interrogated me loudly: “Why do you go to XX County? How did you get there? What time is the bus that you took? How much is the ticket? What time is it when you get there?” Seeing his questions were so detailed, I realized that he was inquiring into my background. Seeing he was so insidious, I prayed to God incessantly from my heart, and prayed God to give me wisdom and protect me from falling into Satan’s trap and from giving any chance to Satan. The fat evil policeman found that I didn’t fall into his trap, and then he used another stratagem. He talked to me insincerely: “I think your parents are in their seventies at least. Parents brought you up, but you are not filial toward them. Instead, you go around for spreading the gospel. When children needed to be taken care of and to be taught, where were you? If your children go wrong for poorly teaching, you are to blame for this. Was ever such a malicious parent like you in the world. You really have no humanity.” Hearing the devil’s words, I couldn’t help being a little weak in my heart. Thinking I had failed in a mother’s duty, and wasn’t filial to my parents, my indebtedness to my families stole over me. I dropped into Satan’s temptation unknowingly.
At the moment, God led me to remember His words: “As members of the human race and devout Christians, it is the responsibility and obligation of us all to offer up our mind and body for the fulfillment of God’s commission, for our entire being came from God, and it exists thanks to the sovereignty of God. If our minds and bodies are not for God’s commission and not for the righteous cause of mankind, then our souls will be unworthy of those who were martyred for God’s commission, much more unworthy of God, who has provided us with everything” (“God Presides Over the Fate of All Mankind”). God’s words with authority and power, suddenly awoke me. I ought to worship God as a creature of God. Because everything of us all comes from God and nothing can exit without God’s sovereignty. We should worship God and only if we worship God will we have a good destiny. The reason why I can’t look after my parents and children at home is because of the persecution of the CCP. It is the CCP that makes me unable to go back home, not God. Satan is too insidious and contemptible. It actually used my emotions and fatal weakness to beguile me into selling out brothers and sisters and being captured by it at last. Without the timely supply of God’s words, I would have dropped into Satan’s temptation and fallen into its trap. At this moment, I remembered what we fellowshiped at a meeting: Satan is best at saying something pleasant to hear so as to disguise themselves and make themselves to be worshipped and regarded highly by people. When the fat policemen found that I wasn’t cheated by him, he continued seducing me. He brought two pictures in which there were more than ten brothers and sisters. He put them before me and said to me with a sly smile: “Have a look at these people in the pictures and see whether you know them. Some people are your fellow villagers, and some are those whom you visited. Tell me where they are from? What are their names? Where do they live? And how do you contact with each other?” Seeing the pictures, immediately I recognized a brother and a sister. I thought: The evil policeman wants me to sell out brothers and sisters, to destroy the work of God’s household, and to betray God like Judas. I pretended to see the pictures carefully, and then said to him: “I don’t know any of them.” He asked in reply: “You don’t know? It is impossible?” He pointed at a brother in the picture and said: “This is your fellow villager. He and you came to Qinghai City to spread the gospel together. He met you at the station and talked about the gospel work with you too.” His words gave me a shock. How did he know clearly? Could it be that someone had betrayed? But I also thought what the evil policeman said and did were all deceit, seduction and temptations, so I confirmed in my heart that it was another trap. I wasn’t bound to be cheated by him. No matter whether someone betrayed, I wasn’t bound to sell out anything of churches. At the moment, a passage of God’s words clearly arose in my mind: “Furthermore, I have no liking for anyone who has once betrayed Me, much less do I like to associate with those who sell out the interests of their friends. This is My disposition, regardless of who the person may be. I must tell you this: Anyone who breaks My heart shall not receive clemency from Me a second time, and anyone who has been faithful to Me shall forever remain in My heart” (“You Ought to Prepare a Sufficiency of Good Deeds for Your Destination”). And then, I said unperturbedly: “I really don’t know him and never meet him, let alone know who he is!”
Tough Tactics: Extorting a Confession by Torture
Seeing his tricks didn’t work, the old evil policeman questioned me intentionally where I came from on earth again. I didn’t give him the real address. He got hopping mad at once and questioned me furiously: “Where are you from on earth? If you don’t tell the truth, we shall handle you without gloves. And we can’t be soft on you believers in God. We will make you feel worse than death. Try it if you don’t believe this.” Then, they dragged my arms fiercely and pulled me out of the torture-rack, and ordered me to stand against the back torture-rack. In order not to leave wounds on my body and let out their evil deeds, they dragged my wrists and ankles, then wrapped them in towels, and finally cuffed them onto the torture-rack. Thus, I was suspended in the air and was squatted in a seated position. Straight away a policeman got a chair and sat on the right side of the torture-rack. He opened the torture-rack door, and then violently kicked it and kicked it until the torture-rack leaned to the left. My body was thereby totally distorted and curved into an inverted S shape. Instantly my bones got weak all over, and my hands and feet ached as if they were broken. I was suspended in the air. I tried to use force, but I couldn’t. I clenched my teeth, bore the pain and swallowed tears. In a moment, my face was full of perspiration. He smiled and said proudly: “I’ll see how tight-lipped you are!” And the other two policemen walked round me, laughed wildly and said: “How dare you not tell!” Seeing they had no compassion and took delight in torture people, I had a bitter hatred for them in my heart. I really felt that the gang of policemen are evil spirits, devils, who came from hell to the world to torture people on purpose. My hatred for them got deeper and deeper. I even wanted to fight it out with them. However, I had trapped in the devils’ hands and could only be arbitrarily ravaged and handled by them. I didn’t know how long I could hold on. The more I thought, the more I became darkened within. I retreated into the spirit quickly, sought and prayed. I prayed God to help me through the difficult time. At the moment, suddenly I remembered God’s words: “On the road to Jerusalem, Jesus felt in agony, as if a knife were being twisted in His heart, yet He had not the slightest intention of going back on His word; always there was a powerful force compelling Him onward to where He would be crucified” (“How to Serve in Harmony With God’s Will”). “For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, works for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory” (“Is the Work of God So Simple as Man Imagines?”) God’s words enlightened me. In order to save people, the Lord Jesus was nailed on the cross and endured extreme pain without any grumbles. Today God has become flesh again and come to work in China. He has suffered the CCP government’s persecution, rejecting and slanders, but He never gives up saving us. Rather, God is to make complete a group of people through the CCP’s persecution, thus defeating Satan. This is God’s wisdom. I’m a creature of God. By God’s grace I accept God’s salvation. When I seek to gain the truth and then be saved by God in the country ruled by the devil, it is preordained to suffer persecution and adversity. Facing the light affliction, I am willing to resolve to betray my flesh and stand testimony. Never be a Judas.
Half an hour later, my legs were shaking, and my hands were tightened so much that they became numb and lost feeling. They dragged my body with force, and unlocked the handcuffs and shackles. Carried by momentum, I fell to the floor. I lay paralyzed on the floor and couldn’t move, sweating all over. Even my clothes were wet. I closed my eyes and lay on the floor motionlessly, but they did not relent in the interrogation of me. They continued questioning: “Who send you here on earth? Where is your money?” I was tight-lipped. Seeing me still keep silent, they got extremely angry. They dragged me up, wrapped my wrists and ankles in towels and cuffed onto the torture-rack again. They kicked the torture-rack with even more force, and cursed fiercely: “If you don’t say it, we’ll fix you to death! We will see how long you can hold on!” My body was distorted. My arms and legs would be nearly broken. The agony was beyond description. I just felt I was going to die at any time. But I knew that God was looking at me now. God’s heart ached for me too. I was willing to endure the pain to comfort God. No matter how the CCP’s evil policemen ravaged my flesh, I was firmly resolved to stand testimony. They ravaged me for half an hour, and then dragged me from the torture-rack. I laid on the floor as if I were already dead. Two policemen carried me up and pressed me onto the torture-rack. I sat on the torture-rack. My hands and feet were cuffed. They continued interrogating me: “Where is the church money? Who is your superior? Say it, and you’ll be free from the pain.” Seeing me still keep silent, they got exasperated and said: “You seem incorrigible.” At the same time, they pulled me out of the torture-rack. Seizing my collar, one of them bellowed: “You were giving us hell these days, but by now you still don’t say anything.” Later on, he slapped my face several times. At once, my face felt hot pain. I was in pain all over from the torture, without any strength. My legs were shaking, and I could hardly stand. I kept crying out to God in my heart. It was God who gave me will and strength in my suffering, so that I didn’t fall. The evil policeman got wildly angry, pointed at me and said fiercely: “If you still don’t confess, we’ll froze your families and your relatives’ bank accounts, and let them pay no attention to you and hate you!” He revealed his ferocity. It turned out that what the evil policemen did was just to extort money from me. When their purpose failed, they instigated all the people to attack me and abandon me and then let me yield obediently. How sinister and base they are! Now I hated them bitterly. The policeman continued saying: “If you confess now, it is not too late. Moreover, we assure you that we let you out. But if not, then wait to be sentenced and imprisoned! When the time comes for you to be imprisoned, we will send you to the hardest and remotest prison, and you must be tortured to death!” I didn’t say a word all along. The evil policeman who was called “Mr. So-and-so” interrogated me with soft and tough tactics, but didn’t get what he wanted. And then, he said helplessly: “I see, you know many important things, but you won’t say. We don’t get even one word. You believers in Almighty God are all tough enough, and are all stubborn guys.” After the interrogation, it was already on the morning of the 15th. Seeing the failure of Satan, I was full of thanks and praises to God in my heart. I sang a hymn of God’s word silently, “Only in Real Life Can You Taste God’s Love”. “When you have satisfied God, inside you there will be the guidance of God, and you will be especially blessed by God, which will give you a sense of enjoyment: You will feel especially honored that you have satisfied God, you will feel especially bright inside, and in your heart you will be clear and peaceful, your conscience will be comforted and free from accusations…”
A Statement of Repentance, Seduction and Temptation
At about 3 o’clock on the afternoon of the 15th, the policemen sent me to the hospital for a thorough examination. Afterward, they sent me into Xining Detention Center No.2. I was interrogated twice again, but they got nothing. At the end of December, 2012, the captain of the detention house ordered the group leader (a prisoner who supervised some prisoners and ran errands for the captain) to inform us that all believers in Almighty God must write a statement of repentance, and if someone wrote the statement, he would be dealt with leniently or be released. It was a great temptation for me. Life here is practically hell, so I wanted to get out early. But I knew it was a war in the spiritual realm. Believing in God these years, I knew it was God that led me to the correct path of life. He had paid too much painstaking price for me, so, on no account should I betray God or become a Judas, an eternal sinner and grieve God just because of fearing death. If I had written the statement of repentance, I would have betrayed God, and my life in believing in God would have been brought to an end. At this time, I thought of God’s words: “Those who only accept judgment but can never be purified, that is, those who flee in the midst of the work of judgment, shall forever be detested and rejected by God. Their sins are more numerous, and more grievous, than those of the Pharisees, for they have betrayed God and are rebels against God. Such men who are not worthy even to do service shall receive more severe punishment, a punishment that is moreover everlasting” (“Christ Does the Work of Judgment With the Truth”). God’s disposition is unoffendable. If one betrays God, he will suffer the Gehenna of eternal fire. That they seduced me into writing the statement of repentance was Satan’s trickery. They wanted me to deny God and betray God. They were really sinister and base. If I betray God, I will suffer God’s righteous punishment at last.
They used the head of the prisoners to coax me: “It’s really a pity if you miss such a good chance. It’s not worthwhile for you to suffer here. Why do you suffer this? Please write the statement of repentance quickly. Take the chance. If you write it, you will be sentenced mildly and then go back home early, or perhaps you will be released. Your husband and children are all waiting for you. Won’t you have a family reunion if you go back home? You have left home for so long time, and how worried your families are!” Facing Satan’s temptation, I knew that God’s righteous dispositions is unoffendable. God is dignified. If someone betrays God once, he will be eliminated. Thus, writing a statement of repentance is a statement of life and death. It is also a statement of selling one’s own soul. No matter how she seduced me, I made up my mind not to write it. I resolved in my heart: I would rather be imprisoned for many years than deny and betray God due to fearing death. At last, the captain of the detention house stood outside the window of the cell and scolded me angrily, because I didn’t write the statement of repentance. She also instigated other prisoners not to talk with me, and punished me by half-month of night shift.
Life in Detention House Is Worse Than That of Pigs and Dogs
In detention house, there was two meals every day. It was almost boiled potatoes at every meal in winter, and everyone was given only a steamed bun for each meal. Most people couldn’t eat their fill, so they had to buy food of detention house at a high figure. Meals were improved twice every week. But there was just plus one or two piece of tough beef in soup. Everything was done in the cell—eating, drinking, defecating, and urinating. At night, a wide bed was overcrowded with over twenty prisoners. The head of prisoners still occupied more room of the bed, so the width left for everybody else was less than 6 inches. It was hardly to squeeze ourselves in. I dared not use the toilet at midnight, because I would lose my place when I returned from the toilet. If I lost my place, I had to wait. And I didn’t squeeze myself in until someone turned over. Terrible prisoners quarreled with each other about sleeping. If it was found by the captain, she would punish them by night shift which they had to work on for at least a week to a month, and if longer, two to three months. I was fearful of sleeping at night. Sleeping was like torture for me. When sleeping at night, I ached all over. Even turning over in bed was difficult. No matter how achy I was, I had to endure the pain. My arm was crushed by the person next to me and I suffered from the pain for almost two months. Prisoners had to peel garlic by day. It took everyone a whole day to peel half a sack of garlic. My hands were irritated by garlic and then peeled, exposing red flesh. Every movement of peeling garlic caused immense pain. But I had to finish it on time. Otherwise, I would be scolded, and even be punished by being allotted more garlic next time. They simply didn’t treat us as human beings but as slaves to earn money. What we ate was the same as what was fed to pigs and dogs. We lived an inhuman life. In the environment, several of us sisters took the opportunity to communicate God’s words together which we remembered. We helped and encouraged each other. Other sisters took care of me with my daily necessities, food and clothes. Later on, the sisters who stayed with me all were moved to the labor camp. Without sisters’ company and communication, I felt lonely and was in pain. Thinking that I would suffer a long hellish life in jail, and that I didn’t know how much affliction I would still suffer, I couldn’t help but be a bit afraid whether I could undergo the hardship. Moreover, I was outside hometown, and brothers and sisters at hometown didn’t know I was arrested, so the difficulties in life couldn’t be solved. I wept in sadness secretly. In misery, I could keep calling out to God: “O God! Sisters have left. I don’t know how to pass the days to come. May You remove my excessive demands, and give me a heart of obeying You, so that I can face up to such an environment.” After prayer, God enlightened me: “You should know whether there is true faith and true loyalty within you, whether in your record you have suffered for God, and whether you wholly submit to God. If you lack these, then within you remains disobedience, deceit, greed, and discontent. As your heart is not honest, you have never received the appreciation of God and never lived in the light” (“Three Admonitions”). Through God’s words, I have understood that God was testing my faith, my loyalty, my suffering and my obedience by the environment, but what I considered was all my flesh and I always wanted to suffer less. Nowadays, I have understood God’s good intentions. I would like to obey and change myself.
Inventing Lies and Unifying Approach
Afterward, when the higher authorities conducted an inspection, the captain informed the prisoners of every cell beforehand: “Clean the cell! Fold the quilt neatly! Don’t say there are a shop and special mess! Don’t mention your meals! Don’t mention your labors! Don’t speak ill of the captain!” Prisoners must say what they had been told. If someone told the truth, she would be punished fiercely. In addition, when prisoners’ families wanted to give some things to them, the police would give one portion of the things to the prisoner, and keep the other. They didn’t allow the prisoners to ask about the things that their families sent. If she asked, she would be ravaged by them. One time, a prisoner asked to see the list of the things. Not only did she not see the list, but she was put shackles weighing 20 kilograms on and walked up and down in the corridor all day. Later on, whatever she did, she was in fetters day and night. Half a month later, they put the shackles off her. In order to maintain their profit and status, they demanded prisoners to tell lies, invent lies, distort the fact and confuse right and wrong. There is no freedom of speech. Everything is decided by them. If you tell the truth, they will seal your lips and ravage you. The CCP is an expert at telling lies. They say one thing and then do another. They are full of lies and deceit. Just as God’s words say: “The devil tightly trusses all of man’s body, it puts out both his eyes, and seals his lips firmly shut. The king of devils has rampaged for several thousand years, right up until today, when it still keeps a close watch on the ghost town, as if it were an impenetrable palace of demons.” The Sermons and Fellowship on Entry Into Life says: “You must say what the leaders ask you. Even though you have a mouth, it’s of no use and it’s controlled by them. You see, Satan will control your mouth. It’ll control your heart, not allowing you to think, ponder, search or investigate. Also, it’ll control your mouth, not allowing you to speak freely. You must say what they tell you and must speak according to unified standards. You must say what they ask. You can’t say what they forbid you to say. Though you have a mouth, it’s at the mercy of them. If you insist on saying, Satan will seal your lips. If you still continue to say, then it’ll slit your throat and break your teeth. You see, Satan doesn’t allow people to say words in accord with the facts or to tell the truth. It only lets people tell lies, just as it does. … People have no freedom of speech. The great red dragon doesn’t allow people to tell the truth, to talk about real knowledge or to expose the fact of things. It always covers up the truth and calls black white. It calls white black and also lets you call it black. It calls black white and lets you call it white as well. Do you see the true face of Satan?” These words reveal the CCP’s nature thoroughly. By comparison with the fact, I had some actual understanding of the CCP’s nature of telling lies.
On April 17, 2015, the court accused me of “using an evil cult to destroy the implementation of the law” and sentenced me to three years in prison. In May, I was sent to the Qinghai Province Women’s Prison. I was forced to learn the prison rules and regulations for a month upon arriving there, and had to remember over eighty prison regulations within half a month. And when the captain of the prison gave me random exams in the regulations, I must recite them immediately. I was also forced to practice three kinds of steps every day and to stand in a military posture like solders. Every time I stood for at least half an hour and was still ordered to hold four playing cards tightly in fingers. If one of them fell to the ground, I was punished by standing for five more minutes. Because I had been imprisoned in the detention house for two years and seven months, I was very weak. At first when I stood in a military posture for less than ten minutes, I felt I was going to fall down. So I prayed to God continuously, asking God to help me. I was still punished by practicing more times when one movement was a little not up to the standard. Other prisoners were allowed to have a break but I was not. Every day when prisoners went to the mess hall or left the mess hall, the captain watched us all along. If someone walked a little slowly, the captain would scold her, and punish her by standing in a military posture. Every day I was under great strain and in great pain. At night, I lay awake tossing and turning. When I prayed to God, God enlightened me to remember God’s words: “Whenever you are faced with something, be it good or bad, you should benefit from it and it should not cause you to become passive. No matter what, you should be able to consider it by standing on the side of God, and not analyze or study it from the perspective of man (this is a deviation in your experience)” (“Promises to Those Who Have Been Perfected”). I pondered God’s words silently. God said no matter whether the thing was good or bad, I should benefit from it. What was the benefit of the environment? I realized unwittingly that I should practice rebelling against the flesh by the environment. The environment could help me break through the restriction of the flesh, tempered my willpower, and improved my perseverance. Through the environment, I saw that the purpose of the CCP ravaging people is to control people, and finally to make people treat it as God. After understanding God’s will, I depended on God constantly. Having God with me, I wasn’t afraid anymore. Later on, I was up to the standard of the three kinds of steps as directed.
On December 13, 2015, I finally got out of the hell on earth and saw the light of day again. However, when I went back home, I was still monitored and controlled by the local judicial organs. There is no freedom of faith in God in China. The CCP even wishes that it had hung an apparatus on the neck of every believer in God, so that it can control every believer no matter where he is. The means of the CCP controlling people are despicable and vile. It is too hateful! In such bondage and persecution of the CCP, I have resolved to follow God to the end. I would rather die than yield to Satan. Moreover, I can perform my duty on the premise that I am safe, thereby shaming Satan and defeating Satan thoroughly.
After undergoing the CCP’s fierce persecution, I have seen God’s almightiness and salvation. Although I was ravaged by it, God was beside me, watched over and protected me. The enlightenment and guidance of God’s words strengthened my faith, so I didn’t betray God. At the same time, I have a true knowledge of the CCP’s ugly face and evil and reactionary substance. On the surface, it raises the banner of the freedom of religious belief, but in secret, it arrests, persecutes, arbitrarily tortures, and ravages the believers in God. Its means are extremely malicious and despicable. The CCP is the devil coming to the earth. It’s the incarnation of foul devils and evil spirits. It is the enemy of God as well as of all God’s chosen people. It really deserves to be cursed! Only God is the One who saves human; only God loves people most; only God can bring us light and give us the way of. However, the devil of the CCP can only corrupt people, ravage people, and devour people. It is the source of the evil in the world. At last, it is the righteous punishment of God that waits for it!
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