By Yang Laidi I’m Yang Laidi, sixty-two years old this year. In 1985, because my husband had health problems, our […]
Utterances and Testimonies of Christ in the Beginning-The Fifty-seventh Utterance
Have you examined each of your thoughts and ideas, and every act? Are you aware of which of these are in accord with My intentions and which are not? You don’t have any ability to discern these at all! Why haven’t you come before Me? Is it because I haven’t told you or is it for some other reason? You should know this! Know that it is inevitable that people who are negligent cannot grasp My intentions or receive great illumination and revelation.
Have you found out the reasons why the church cannot get nourishment and lacks genuine fellowship? Are you aware of how many factors are because of you? I instructed you to provide life and deliver My voice. Have you done these? Do you take responsibility for delaying the life progress of your brothers and sisters? Whenever something comes up you have been upset, not calm and collected. You really are ignorant! My voice should be delivered to the saints. Don’t suppress the work of the . Don’t delay the time for Me. None of that benefits anyone. I have wanted you to dedicate yourself body and mind entirely for My sake, so that your every thought and idea is for Me, that you want what I want, think what I think, and that whatever you do is for the sake of the kingdom today, for the sake of My management, not for yourself. Only that will satisfy My heart.
Whatever I have done is not without validation. Why haven’t you learned from Me? Why haven’t you sought validation in what you do? What more do you want Me to say? I took you by the hand to teach you, but you have been too stupid to learn! Do you want to start all over again? Don’t be discouraged. You must pull yourself together once again and dedicate yourself entirely on behalf of the shared hopes and shared wishes of the saints. Remember the words: “To you who sincerely expend yourselves for Me, I will give great blessings, so shall it be.”
Whatever you do you must do in an orderly way, not haphazardly. Do you really dare say you know about the state of the saints like you know the back of your hand? That shows you have no wisdom, and that you haven’t taken this matter seriously at all and haven’t spent any time on it. If you could truly spend all your time on that, look at how you are within. You don’t pursue active effort, just look for objective reasons, show no concern for My intentions, and that has hurt Me deeply! Don’t continue to go on this way! Can it be that you refuse the blessings I have given you?
Oh, God! Your child is in Your debt. I have not taken Your work seriously, or shown concern for Your intentions, nor been faithful to Your exhortation. Your child wants to reverse all this if only You do not abandon me, if only You continue to carry out Your work through me. Oh, God! Do not leave Your child all by himself, but stay with me every moment. Oh, God! Your child knows You love me, but I cannot grasp Your intentions, I don’t know how to show concern for Your burden, and I do not know how to fulfill what You have entrusted to me, still less do I know how to shepherd the church. You know that I am miserable over this and feel it’s unbearable. Oh, God! Please guide me at all times. Only now do I feel how much I am lacking, all too much! I simply cannot describe it. Let Your almighty hand show mercy to Your child, support Your child at all times, and make Your child able to prostrate himself completely before You, no longer making his own choices, no longer making up his own mind or his own ideas. Oh, God! You know that I want to do everything completely for Your sake, completely for the sake of the kingdom today. You know what I am thinking and what I am doing at this moment. Oh, God! Search me Yourself. I ask only that You walk with me, stay with me in life at all times, and let Your strength accompany my actions.
from The Word Appears in the Flesh