Besides arriving on clouds, there is another way of the second coming of Jesus recorded in the Bible. We should investigate from two aspects so that we won’t miss out on the chance to welcome His second coming.
The Secrets Hidden Behind the Pursuit
Li Li Dezhou City, Shandong Province
Not long ago, I was favored by God and promoted to region worker. One day, when gathered with my co-workers, I couldn’t help but think to myself: I must do well. If I performed poorly, how would my leaders and co-workers see me? As a consequence, when we discussed a subject together, so long as I had just a little understanding of the subject, then I would try to be the first to say something, however when I had no understanding of the subject at hand and was unable to say anything, I found myself getting anxious. During those few days of meetings, I felt very tired and especially anxious, as though I was thrown in some combat arena. Later, I brooded over what I revealed and I realized this type of situation was simply down to my own vanity and there was no real problem.
Then one day, the leaders notified me of a meeting, I felt particularly excited when I learned that the supervisor would convene the meeting, and I thought: It looks like I’m going to be trained up, if I do well and leave a good impression then maybe I’ll be promoted, and when my own responsibility is increased, then not only will my co-workers admire me but so will my brothers and sisters. So at the meeting, I spoke very tentatively, fearing that any inappropriate words would leave a poor impression on my leaders…. When the meeting finally ended, I felt elated even though I was anxious and tired in the days prior, and I felt that future held a lot of promise. From that point onward, my “pursuit” had greatly increased in strength.
Until later, the above issued a sermon “Understanding Our Own Corrupted Essence Before We Are Capable of Getting on the Right Track of Belief in God,” of which I saw there is this to say: “In the past people only ever focused on their former transgressions, or what corruptions they had revealed, whilst neglecting to dissect their every word and deed: which belongs to the corruption of Satan, which belongs to the great red dragon’s poison, which belongs to the realm of people’s imaginations and conceptions, and which belongs to deviations or falsehoods. And one must also dissect their own mental state and inner being, capture the things hidden deep inside the heart, and come before God and use the truth to examine them, so as to know the truth of their own corruption, and see the real problem of corruption. That there isn’t the appearance of major transgressions does not mean that there is no problem within the soul. It is the hidden malice, disposition, and nature which is more difficult to solve. People don’t die from sniffles, it’s the serious diseases which take life.” After reading this, I couldn’t help but think of my own psychology from the two previous meetings, and inwardly I thought: What nature dominated it? At that point, I started looking for the corresponding truths for my own situation so that I might examine and dissect it.
Under God’s guidance, I saw the word of God: “Some people particularly adore Paul. They are keen on giving public sermons and doing public work, on having meetings and talking. They like others to listen to them, to adore them; they like to be the focus of attention, to have a place in others’ hearts, to impress others with their image. From his performance what do we discover about his nature? Let us dissect his nature—what is the nature of a person with manifestations like these? How do we summarize this in words? On this, most people can’t see through it, they can only see what’s on display. What is the relationship between this and his nature? What is his nature? Can’t you see it? If someone acts in this way it shows that they are arrogant and conceited and do not at all. And what they seek is to hold a high position, they desire to govern and possess others, to have a place in others’ hearts. This is the typical image of Satan. The most obvious characteristics of his nature are to be arrogant and conceited, to not worship God, but instead win the worship of others. Is this his nature? His nature can be wholly seen from what’s on display” (“How to Know Man’s Nature” in Records of Christ’s Talks With Leaders and Workers of the Church). I repeatedly tried to figure out God’s every word, and compared them with my own thoughts, words and deeds, only then did I see the truth. The reason why I was particularly nervous and subject to control at the meeting wasn’t to let others pay attention to me or attach value to me? Was it not just to get a higher status and have more people look up to me? When I felt leaders thought highly of me, and thought my own future was full of promise, I felt even more smug and energetic. From that I saw the nature of my own arrogance, I always wanted to stand higher, to govern people, to have a place in people’s hearts, I sought the same as Paul. In essence, what I pursued wasn’t to worship or satisfy God, but to use the status given by God to satisfy my own desires and ambitions. Wasn’t this exactly how the archangel expressed its arrogance? Didn’t I take the path of the antichrist?
Previously when I attended meetings I was easily constrained, but I just thought that I was too vain, and I didn’t dissect the things behind. Now after analysis I recognized that this was driven by an arrogant and conceited nature, behind which was personal scheming and arrogant ambitions. I was dominated by my own arrogance, and did much against God: I bustled around performing my duty and was desperate to express myself so as to gain a higher status and get the admiration of my brothers and sisters; when I laid myself bare in front of my brothers and sisters, I never really analyzed the things hidden deep inside, rather I talked about my external acts to exalt myself and bear witness to myself; when I ate and drank the word of God, it wasn’t to raise my understanding or to receive the truth, but to show off to my brothers and sisters. … When I thought of this I cringed: I was not serving God, I was completely engaged with my own affairs and resisted God. Now, if God hadn’t allowed me to realize my own arrogant nature, and see myself as the embodiment of Satan, then I would continue with my arrogant ways, and might do evil things that resist and betray God and thus be subject to God’s punishment.
I thank God for His timely enlightenment and guidance which led me to recognize the substance of my own arrogant nature, and allowed me to see that I was taking the road of the antichrist; this experience has especially made me realize that, in my experience not only should I pay attention to recognizing my own revelations and transgressions but comparing them to the truth and analyzing the things hidden deep inside to get a better understanding of my own nature and to make changes to my disposition. In the future, I would like to carefully dissect my own state of mind and internal condition, and understand my own corrupt essence, seek and get on the right track to God’s salvation.
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