The Lord Jesus performed a lot of miracles during His work, yet He always told people not to tell others. What’s God’s will in it?
Awakening in the Jaws of Death
In 2007, I accepted God’s work of the last days, but I didn’t seek the truth. Every time I saw people around me eating, dressing and enjoying themselves well, and moreover have plenty of money, I felt really thrown off balance. I also wanted to lead a high quality of life. For that reason, I opened up a barbershop. It went well and I could receive more than 60,000 yuan every year. In addition, my husband made money relying on fishing. Therefore, my family were pretty well-off. I was not satisfied with things as they were, however. I strived with my heart and soul to live a better life. Slowly, I attended meetings less and less. Even if I did, I wouldn’t listen to the brothers and sisters’ communications of the word of God, but only thought of my business. Moreover, I was even less willing to preach the and perform my duty. Brothers and sisters came to sustain me many times, yet I always found excuses to evade. In this way, I occupied myself in earning money, thus my heart moving away from God. However, after a special experience, my numb heart finally was revived.
On one morning of August 2012, around ten o’clock, I bought some vegetables and then withdrew 30,000 yuan from the bank, intending to pay the workers’ wages. On the way back, I rode my electric scooter, with my head full of the money just withdrawn. I even forgot about watching the road. All of a sudden, a big truck cut off the view of the motorist opposite to me. The motorcycle sped to me at full speed. As a result, I was knocked back over ten meters, rolling downward to the foot of the dam. I was unconscious on the spot, with the blood streaming from my nose and mouth. Also, my electric scooter was smashed. At that time, a crowd of onlooker gathered; an acquaintance called my sister. Thereupon my sister dialed 120 and called an ambulance. After the doctor came, I was given oxygen and a hemostatic injection. Due to over two hours’ delay, I had lost a lot of blood. The doctor worried that my life could be in jeopardy, so I was sent to the People’s Hospital in the county. The attending physician said to my family, “We’ve given her a hemostatic injection. Now her bleeding has stopped. But her heart beats are weak. Her life is still in danger.” And with that the doctor sent me to get a CT. Finally the doctor, with a mournful shake of his head, said to my sister, “Her internal organs are all right; she is not being put to death. But now, her heart has stopped beating, so does her pulse. It’s the best we can do. Face it.” A nurse covered me with a white sheet. When she was about to push me into the mortuary, my family burst into crying by my side and didn’t let her do that. (All this I was to learn later.)
At that moment I felt I was in so dark a place that I couldn’t see anything. And there were many little worms crawling up my face and getting inside my ears. I got colder and colder, feeling even more afraid. I thought: Where am I? I was just on my way home and could see the blue sky. Why have I suddenly come to this dark place? It seems that this isn’t a place for human beings. No matter how hard I tried, I was unable to get my bearings. Time seemed to have been frozen, as if death would come upon me at any time. Just then, I suddenly remembered that I am a believer in God, and I should rely on Him. I thought of, “… only I am your refuge. You can only now hide in My secret place, only within Me, and the disasters will not befall you and no calamity will come near to your tent” (“The Twenty-eighth Utterance”).
Only then did I experience that God is my only lifeline. My will to live made me never venture far away from God. I cried to God earnestly, “The only true God who created the heavens and earth and all things, I’ve arrived at this dark place. I’m afraid. Now I come to know how wonderful it is to have meetings and preach the gospel with brothers and sisters. Yet in order to pursue money, I found pretexts for refusal before. All I considered was the interests of my flesh. I didn’t submit to You. If You take me to the light, I’m willing to obey Your designs and arrangements. I won’t disobey and rebel against You again.” When I was calling out to God unceasingly like this, something unexpected happened. I really saw a light. I was so happy, for I found hope. Then I came to. (An hour and a half or so had passed.) I suddenly sat up in bed and said, “The stifling is killing me.” I saw my family crying, then asked, “What are you crying about?” Just as I finished speaking, they all stared at me in astonishment. My brother trembled with fear from head to toe, thinking he saw a ghost. My sister, seeing I come to my senses, was surprised and pleased, and told me what had happened. At her words, I learnt that I had made a trip to the jaws of death.
Soon afterward, she hurried to call the doctors and nurses. On hearing this news, they all ran to see me. A doctor said in amazement, “Miracle! What a miracle! I’ve studied medicine for many years, yet I have never seen anything like this. It’s a miracle!” Seeing that I came to myself, the doctors couldn’t believe it, so they took my charts to recheck. I told my experience in Hades to my family. After hearing that, they all nodded vigorously and said delightedly, “The God you believe in is the true God. It is your God who kept you.” Thank God for His salvation. I came out of hospital that afternoon.
Returning home, I looked back upon my terrible experience in Hades, there being fear lingering in my heart. I examined my disobedient state before God: For the sake of earning more money, I didn’t seek the truth, nor heard the good exhortations of the brothers and sisters. I sensed that I was too indebted to God. Nevertheless, the way God treated me was not based on my disobedience. Rather, when I was in danger, He saved me from Hades in time. I was full of gratitude to Him, tears blurring my sight. Then I offered a prayer of gratitude before Him.
After I quieted my heart, I thought of Restoring the Normal Life of Man and Taking Him to a Wonderful Destination”). It was true! In the past, influenced by the toxin of Satan, “Money isn’t everything but without money you can’t do anything,” I believed that in the modern society, He who had money, had everything and would live towering above others. Accordingly, I fell into the trap of chasing after money and fame. I constantly journeyed to and fro for money, but money couldn’t protect me from the danger. If not for God’s protection and salvation, I would have long been devoured by Satan. I recalled that one of my neighbors, who was on the way to his field for weeding, was knocked down by a motorcycle, insensible on the spot. After that he was taken to hospital. However, in less than two hours, he departed from the world. Another old man died outright after being knocked down by a bike when he went to the field to grow vegetables. While, I, in such a serious traffic accident, was still alive, with only cuts and scrapes. This was God investing me with His salvation., “The fate of man is controlled by the hands of God. You are incapable of controlling yourself: Despite always rushing and busying about for himself, man remains incapable of controlling himself. If you could know your own prospects, if you could control your own fate, would you still be a creature? In short, regardless of how God works, all His work is for the sake of man. … And so, regardless of how He chastises and judges man, it is all for the sake of man’s salvation. Even though He strips man of his fleshly hopes, it is for the sake of purifying man, and the purification of man is for the sake of his existence” (“
In order to repay the grace of God’s salvation, after I recovered from my illness, I did my best to spread the gospel with my brothers and sisters, testifying the wonderful deed God had done in me to more people.
God’s word says, “If mankind wishes to have a good fate, if a country wishes to have a good fate, then man must bow down to God in worship, repent and confess before God, or else the fate and destination of man will unavoidably end in catastrophe” (“God Presides Over the Fate of All Mankind”). Through this special experience, I realized that God is the Ruler of the universe and all things. Both life and death are in God’s hands. If we want to have a good fate, we must come before God to repent. Otherwise, we will be struck by various disasters at any moment.